You are usually great at keeping secrets, but today you are wise to remain quiet and only talk when it’s necessary. There is so much that you want to say and once you open the door, it will be hard to shut it prior to telling everything. Remember, you can take the high road now by practicing discretion, for some things are better left unsaid.
You need to make bold moves today. People are looking to you for more than just keeping it together — they need you to take a risk and show them what you really feel. It’s worth it!
This weeek has been jusst not goood, & i hate it how ppl make it worse. my parents, friends, brothers, family and only one person made it seeem okay. and no its not him. i hate how everything is going wrong & how my grades have slipped sooo much. DSA is sooo stressing and its not even the starrt. i realized that i cant trust anyone. i could have had the perfect weeek but NO ppl had to open their mouth and make shit worse. i told one person something and then idk what happened ppl started twisting that up which made everything go bad. monday was bad, tuesday was jusst hell, wednesday was a lil tiny better, thursaday was better (won my first mach with my friend Mariyln) & friday things got cleared up but itss still crapp. i gotta do someething & idk how to do it or make it better. i cantt talk to anyone aboutt it cos i jusst dont trust anyone at thiss point NO one i trustt. i been hiding shit from my 2 bestfriends. some friends turn your back on you. others jusst have hella shit on them too and i dont wanna make it worse. i guess the only person i have is myself. and no one else. i wishe i could have someone there for me someone i can talk to about anything, someone who can listen to me and understand me, someone who makes me forget all the bullshit and helps me relax someone i can trust with anything and everything someone who can be kinda my everything… i know alot of ppl wish for someone like that but i neeeed someone who can be that type of person for me…
Girls aren’t going to talk to you first. It’s a girl thing. We don’t like starting the conversation because we like to feel like you want to talk to us. We like to feel like the wait was worth something. We like feeling like you’ve waited for us like we’ve waited for you. But the number one reason we hate talking first is because we hate to seem needy or clingy. That’s why we’re scared. Cause to us, being needy and obsessive just pushes guys away. And no girl wants that.
It wasnt thee BEST day, it was pretty crappy. i didntt feel good. didnt wanna talk to anyone didnt feel like talking or txxxn or ANYTHING. Elskee didnt askk which was good. i didntt wanna talk about it. i woulda cried. these days have been sooo weird so depressing and im always feeling down, i try not to show it but i guess “HE” some how sees it. He makes me laugh & smile, he makes me blush then he points it out(x he is a jerk but in a cute sweet way, he always messes with me, he cares if i stay at school too late & if im alone, he makes me mad but he does what he does joking, he plays around saying i want him & how sexy he is, i jusst laugh cos i dont want him to know it… not yet, he calls me sometimes & makes fun of me, but then he gets serious. when i txx a simple Yeap. or Mhm he txxxs back asking what i mean by that, Today for example, i was not feeling good, tooo much crap going on, im stressed & i have B’s instead of A’s. & other things are happening, he looked at me & asked what was wronng i told him i didnt wanna talk about itt but he insisted but i said no, idk if he got kinda mad or not, but then he started messing with me like he does everyday. he started making fun of the girl who sat infront of her & he made me smile ALOT, he joked the ENTIRE period & i laughed alot with him, at the end he said “See i can make yourr day better” i smiled & said “yeah youu always doo” & he smiled at that & looked at me with his gorgeous Green eyes(:
I'm not that cute. I'm really shy when I meet someone new. I have the heart of a 7 year old. I can be socially awkward. I sometimes break out into dance when I hear a song I like. And you know what? You're just going to have to live with that because that is who I am.