“Have you ever been inlove? horrible isnt it ? It makes you soo vulnerable. It opens your chest; it opens your heart, & it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up ! You build up all these ‘defenses’, you build up a WHOLE suit of armor; so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person (no different from anyother stupid person) wanders into your life. You give them a piece of you… , they DIDNt even ask for it . They do something dumb one dayy, like kiss you , or smile at you & then your life isnt your own nomore.. Love takes hostages; it gets inside you. It eats you up leaves you crying in the darkness.. So simple . . a phrase like "Maybe we should just be friends" turns into a glasss splintrer.. working its way into your hert, it hurts, not just in the imagination, not just in the mind, its a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you & rips-you-apart pain, yett when you dont believe in love, it finds a way to make you a believer & you always go crawling back …”—
My parents don't even know the real me. They don't know how many tears I've cried. How many nights I spent waiting for a call. How many times I've been hurt by some stupid boy. They don't know that their "little princess" has grown up.
See that girl? Yeah, she's the one who stuck up for you, the one who stayed up til' midnight just to talk to you. She's the one whose heart flutters when she gets a call or text from you, the one who says Good morning every time she gets the opportunity, and the one who prays she'll get a chance to say Goodnight. Boy, she's the one who fought for you, the one that missed you and loved you. But by the time you realise that she's the girl you want, she'll already be with the guy who figured it out.
But you never know how. It’s like you want to say something, but you don’t want people to take it the wrong way. You want them to understand what you say, but you think they mind misunderstand it and take it to a place you never wanted it to go. Then sometimes you just want to take back what you said and forget it all happened. But then sometimes you regret not saying anything and wish you could have said it before.
I admit. I get mad when other girls start texting you, I get worried when there's girls around you when im not there, I get irritated when you keep on cruising with them, going along with their plan and damn I do get jealous when I see pictures of you and other girls the next day. I dont know, I just dont want anyone to get closer to you cause lets face it, your amazing, and I just dont want anyone else to see that.
Have you ever been angry or sad, to the point where you just break down at home, in your room? Your parents don't know because you keep the tears to yourself, and you cry silently. Your friends don't know because you talk as if you're fine and dandy behind the computer screen. Well you're not fine and dandy, and you know it. No one really knows how you feel, and they have their own lives to deal with, so you don't bother telling them, you bottle it up, and store it with the other problems or troubles.
You don't need to shower me with gifts and roses or spend every dime in your wallet to keep me. I'm not the selfish or materialistic type. All I want is some good quality time. We could be laying around, doing absolutely nothing, and I'll be more than satisfied.
You know what I think we are most afraid of? Not knowing. Not knowing whether it's all really worth it. Not knowing if you should give up or keep fighting. Not knowing why you do the things you do; not knowing the purpose. It's like when you're little and you touch the stove and get burned, because you didn't really know that it was hot. Not knowing has always hurt us, from the very beginning.
Fuck those who only talk to you when they need your help. Fuck those who ignore you when they’re with others. Fuck those who act differently when other people are around. Fuck those who have forgotten you after becoming ‘popular’ and ‘cool’. Fuck those who always take but never gives. Fuck those who never bother to continue a conversation. Fuck those who has ever taken you for granted. Fuck you.
Letting you go is already hard enough for me but forgetting all about you and moving on with my life is even way harder for me to do for you were my first love and I can never forget the best memories I had with you
Tell me I’m not making a mistake. Tell me that you’re worth the wait, that you’re always going to be here. Make me believe that I’m making the right decision by still holding on. Show me that you’re going to be around to catch me when I fall.
And He tells her how much he loves her, and uses every corny line out of every sappy romantic movie he's ever seen. But little did she know that unlike a movie this was real and he meant every word he ever said.
“Sometimes it’s easy to feel like you’re the only one in the world who’s struggling, who’s frustrated, or unsatisfied at barely getting by. But, that feeling is a lie and if you just hold on; just find the courage to face it all for another day, someone or something will find the way and make it all okay. Because we all need a little help sometimes, someone to help us hear the music in the world. To remind us that it won’t always be this way. That someone is out there, and that someone will find you.”—
He made me day today(: i watched him practice, i was bored but i pretended to be having a good time, Lol then after he drove me to Dulce's.. fuck i forgot thee name but yeah i got a Raspado and he bought me a lil poster(: after my brother got there we talked for a while. he kinda sort of made plan to watch a movie, he is willing to watch Eclipse with me even tho he is NOT a fan of Twilight. he hates it just like Omar hahaha. then he tried to give me a Goodbye kiss but thank god my brothers friend called his name and i just quickly gave him a hug and said txt me later. he said wait i dont have your # lmao. i pretended i didnt hear him(: LOL
so it was a fun fun day. well at least the last hours were(;
We talk shit even though we don't like people shit-talking us. We laugh at people but get mad when they laugh at us. We complain even though we're complaining about how people always complain. We say we'll never do this and that but end up doing it. We say we hate haters when we're the ones hating our haters. We're hypocrites and you know it.
Last night Linda slept over for the first time haha.
we watched Mexico vs France and MEXICO won 2-0!!! that made my day(:
with that win i won 50$. me and linda went to get a frozen yogurt then my brother took us to her house in Pitt. i called my mom and she said i could sleep over. we watched movies and passed out after.
we woke up around 12!haha we cleaned her house then her sister made us pancakes. then we got all ready. i curled my hair for the 4th time this week. i need to stop hehe. then my brother arrived and he took us to Walmart lmao. his girl wanted to go buy a game. we came back to her house played a board game(; then we left home around 11. my parents were asleep.(Good)